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Jump Start # 3375

Jump Start # 3375

Philippians 1:21 “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.”

Over the weekend, I was in Dallas speaking at a youth lecture with my son Jordan. We both spoke Friday evening. Earlier that morning is when Jimi was executed in an Alabama prison for crimes he had committed. I read a letter that Jimi had written for me to use there. When I arrived home, there was a letter from Jimi. He wrote it the day before he died. Included in the letter was “Last Words by James Barber.” He was not allowed to carry that paper into the death chamber. He sent it to me, hoping that I could share it.

I know I have written and talked a lot lately about Jimi, but it is an incredible story. Here are his final words to me:

Roger,

 

  I received 26 letters last night (Tues the 18th). All were because of your kindness and faith to preach and spread my story. Although I am still taken aback that anyone finds it interesting or inspiring, I am humbled and thankful to have reached maybe thousands. Incredible!

 

  I want you to know I love you in Christ. Van Cooper and you have taken what the state of Alabama and my own actions meant for a curse and made it into the most edifying, spiritual experience of my earthly life.

 

  The strength, peace and godly joy this has brought me will carry me through anything. I love you and all the folks who took time to write and uplift me with their love and prayers. Please let as many know as possible. I can’t respond to them myself. Impossible. Please let as many know as you can.

 

  This will be my last correspondence if the state has its way. Enclosed is the “last words” I wrote, but been informed the warden will not allow paper to be held up so I can read them. I will try to get out a message as close as my feeble mind will allow. But here is the true last words. You may use them as seen fit.

 

  Love in Christ,

 

  James Barber

 

Last Words– James Barber

 

  God is so good! My life was over. Someone I loved, life was over. I was in jail, no bond, no chances left. At the edge of the abyss. Everything gone in the wink of an eye. But…I opened the Bible. And God reached down, lifted me in His hands and said, ‘Now, now your ready for me to use as an instrument for My glory!!’

 

  I read and learned of Him. As I did, He brought a light into the deepest darkness a man can find himself in. He brought peace where there was only chaos. He brought joy where there was only despair. He bought truth where only lies had dwelt. He brough wisdom to a fool. He brought life to one who was dead.

 

  God is the creator of all things. He created a new thing in me. Gave me wisdom I never had and assured me a permanent dwelling place in His presence.

 

  I’ve strived to show Him my love and utter awe at the great gift He gave by the way I tried to live. At times, I know I’ve failed to do my best. But I made up my mind early on that mere words could not express my deep sorrow at what had occurred at my hands. And so, I hoped the way I lived my life would be a testimony to the family of Dorothy Epps, and also my family, of the regret and shame I have for what I have done. I don’t know if I’ve succeeded. Not for me to judge. But I also told my brother on the phone from the county jail that I was never going to become a convict. Said I won’t cut my hair like one, conduct myself like one, speak like one and most important, think like one. I wanted, when either I walked out of prison or am carried out in a body bag, to be a better man than when I walked into prison.

 

  I hope God finds my feeble efforts worthy. I hope the Epps family will know I did the only thing that I thought could show my deep regret, and it helps them somehow. Please pray for the Epps family. I love them deeply. Pray for my family, for peace and strength.

 

  May the God of all creation create a new thing for each of you and lead you into the greatest, most spiritual era of your lives.

 

  Be instruments for His glory. I love you and thank you in Christ.”

 

  James Barber (July 19, 2023)

 

I have written Jimi nearly every day for more than a month. I cannot write him anymore. His journey here is finished and he is in the hands of God. I believe his faith, trust and obedience in the Lord brought him forgiveness, peace and hope.

I hope Jimi’s story will inspire you to live righteously. So many have been touched by Jimi’s faith and example. Thank you for allowing me to share Jimi with you.

May the Lord bless each of us.

Roger

 

 

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Jump Start # 3374

Jump Start # 3374

Deuteronomy 9:3 “Know therefore today that it is the Lord your God who is crossing over before you as a consuming fire. He will destroy them and He will subdue them before you, so that you may drive them out and destroy them quickly, just as the Lord has spoken to you.”

Our verse today is wrapped in a series of instructions the Lord gives to Israel about taking the promise land. It was their land. This was promised by God. In the following verses, the Lord lets the nation know that it is not because of their righteousness or goodness that the Lord is doing this. In fact, they are called a stubborn people. Instead, it is due to the wickedness of these pagan cities that God is driving those inhabitants out.

Within our verse today is a great principle and reminder for us. The Lord your God is crossing over before you. God will be there before you get there. Not only will God be there, but He is subduing the nations so Israel can quickly and completely drive them out. The Lord is there before us…what a wonderful thought.

Consider:

First, the Lord is in tomorrow before we get there. We worry about this and that. We stay awake and toss and turn, wondering how we will get through another medical test, or pay a bill that is due, or face family members that are cruel and mean. For Israel, there were fortified cities, great armies and giants that stood before them. Yet, God was there. He was there before they got there. Before they set up camp, the Lord was there. Before they marched to the first city, the Lord was there.

Before you get to work, God is there. Before you sign in at the doctor’s office, God is there. Before you pull into the driveway, God is there. You do not face things alone. You do not have these battles on your own. Pray that God will help you. He is already there.

Second, not only was God ahead of Israel, the Lord was doing things. I cannot tell you how tomorrow will be, but God is there and already doing things. God’s angels are busy doing things for the righteous. Hearts that are closed can be opened by the Lord. People that are unmovable can be moved by the Lord. Things that are beyond us and situations in which we do not know what to do, the Lord is there, busy, working. God is a day ahead of us. What a comforting thought that is. The task is not overwhelming because God is doing things today that will help your tomorrow.

Third, Israel was still expected to do their part. God was subduing the nations, but Israel had to drive them out. Drive them out quickly was the command. Why didn’t God do that? He could have. It would have made things easier for Israel. No Jericho. No Ai. No other cities. All dealt with by God. Maybe the Lord knew that Israel needed to trust Him. Faith is only good if we need it and use it. The events of Jericho was a major test of Israel’s faith. Would they follow those unusual commands? Would they do it God’s way?

And, what a lesson for us. God may open hearts, but it is up to us to bring up the conversation. God may open eyes, but it is up to us to be the light of the world before others. God may open doors, but we must do our part. God would subdue, but Israel was to drive out.

As one faces the frightful days of sickness and death, realize that God is already there. As one faces the tragic sadness of divorce, God is there. In the desert of life, God is there. In the storms of life, God is there. In the heartache of life, God is there. When others, even brethren turn against you, God is there.

The promise of God that He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow gives us great hope and assurance. We haven’t missed His best days. We don’t worry about God changing. The God that led Abraham, leads you. The God that protected Noah, protects you. The God that reassured the disciples, reassures you.

Jesus, in so many ways has already gone before us. He faced Satan, before we did. He died before we have. He was risen before we were. He is in Heaven before us.

God is crossing over before you…He’ll be waiting for you. It will be ok because He is there.

Roger

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Jump Start # 3373

Jump Start # 3373

Mark 5:41 “And taking the child by the hand, He said to her, ‘Talitha Kum!’ (which translated means, ‘Little girl, I say to you arise’).”

Our verse comes from the raising of Jairus’ twelve year old daughter. She was dying. Her father, a synagogue official, came to Jesus and before others, bowed. That took immense courage and faith. Most synagogue officials didn’t like Jesus. They didn’t like Jesus healing on the Sabbath day. But, for Jairus, he no longer cared about status, reputation, or what others thought or said. His daughter was dying and Jesus was his only hope.

And, as the story unfolds, Jesus is hurrying on to Jarius’ home when a woman with an issue of blood touches the Lord. She is healed. A conversation takes place. And, then word comes, the little girl has died. Jesus was too late. All hope is gone. Tears fill the air. A crushed father is helpless. The Lord says, “Believe.” On to the home they go. Everyone is ordered out except for the parents and three of the disciples. This is where our verse is found. She opens her eyes. There is Jesus.

Nothing is said about what she saw on the other side. Today, I thought about Jimi Barber. He was executed by the state of Alabama for his crimes he committed. Forgiven, there are still consequences. Executed, yet saved by the blood of Jesus. He was Heaven bound. Young in faith, Jimi had the hopes of Heaven. He closed his eyes here and opened them on the other side. What he must be seeing today. What joy and love he must be experiencing today.

My dear friend, Chuck Durham came and spoke to our congregation recently in our summer series. I told Chuck about Jimi. Showed him a letter that Jimi had written to the church. Chuck immediately connected to Jimi, like I have. I want to share with you the wonderful words that Chuck wrote to Jimi.

  “I sit here crying tears. Tears of joy and of sadness. Jimi helped me today to renew vigor. To think better. To want Heaven more.

 

  The tears of joy are for his words: ‘They can’t take Heaven from me.’ There will be two on the other side waiting for him. The Lord who will stand by the throne when the chemicals start flowing into his veins. And a thief…a thief who knows what true grace and mercy look like when everything has failed.

 

  The tears of sadness are for me who walks around in freedom and yet has let the trials of life, the pettiness of brethren’s actions…let myself be dragged down. I have been in prison. Jimi helped set my mind free. Really…Jimi’s Lord and mine freed us.

 

  John the baptist heard the boots of soldiers coming for him. He never let himself be offended because of his Lord and therefore was blessed.

 

  They took Paul outside Rome, to a place of execution. As he bowed his head to receive the blow…struck down, but not destroyed…he knew the Lord held a crown to place upon his head saying: ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! Enter into the joys of your Lord!’

 

  And when the weight of all the sins of mankind wracked His mortal body; when He and the Father were ready…He dismissed His mortal life with a shout, a cry to all of Heaven and the depths of Hades…’It is finished!’ – and bowing His head that His spirit might be received into His Father’s hands—the legions of angels looking down from Heaven riveted with attention– all was made right, restored, set free, given life abundantly.

 

  Thank you, Jimi! That you for renewing my desire for Heaven! I will pray this day and that day for you. Please pray for me.

 

  The sweetest words of all– Brother! You are my brother!”

Signed,  Chuck Durham

Jimi’s last words he wrote to me were, “On July 21st I will be in a better place. Don’t be sad or hang your heads down. No. Look up, because when I get there I’m going to leave a light on for you all. I love you so much.

Signed, Jimi.

Jairus’ daughter opened her eyes and there was Jesus. She opened her eyes and I expect she saw a smiling Jesus looking right into her eyes.

Someday soon, we will close our eyes here for the last time. When we open them, we will see the face of Jesus, smiling, welcoming us to Him. Heaven holds all to me!

God is good.

Roger

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Jump Start # 3372

Jump Start # 3372

 Matthew 18:3 “and said, ‘Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of Heaven.’”

I was preaching in another congregation recently. At the end of the sermon, I told the story about Jimi, the powerful example of a man on death row who read the Bible on his own and wanted to become a N.T. Christian. Jump Start #3348 tells Jimi’s story.

We sang an invitation song after I told Jimi’s story. It was a hymn I had never sung before. It’s called, “Praise the Lord, I’m coming home.” The ending chorus says, “…with each day I get closer to Heaven; praise the Lord, I’m coming home.” Tears were running down my cheeks. I was thinking about Jimi. The next morning, I wrote Jimi and told him about that church service and I referred to those powerful words in that chorus. My letter to him ended with “Praise the Lord, I’m coming home.”

Today, Jimi is to be executed. Forgiven by the grace of God, Jimi will sing hymns with the Heavenly Host. My heart is heavy thinking about Jimi. He wrote a letter that he wanted me to read to our congregation, thanking them for thinking about him. He was amazed how far and wide and touching his story became. He said that he looked forward to standing before us and thanking us in person. He wasn’t thinking about getting out of prison. It wasn’t a dream to come to Indiana and stand before our congregation. He was thinking about Heaven. He was anticipating thanking us when we see each other in Heaven.

Now, some thoughts:

First, the love and faith and courage found in Jimi is so fresh and impressive. There are so many things that Jimi doesn’t know or understand. He hasn’t sat in Bible classes for decades as many of us have. He has never heard a sermon before. He never sang with other Christians. He never took the Lord’s Supper. Locked away in solitary awaiting his execution, Jimi prayed and read his Bible. His faith is like a child’s. His heart is as big as the universe.

Sometimes we get down into the weeds and argue about the meaning of words and the applications of passages, and that simplistic, child-like faith, found in Jimi and longed for by the Lord, is often missing among us. The “lawyers” that often tested and challenged Jesus, were not the kind found in courtrooms. They were “experts” in the law of God. They knew the law and they knew meanings of words. Some of the modern commentaries are written that way. This word comes from that word which means this and is a form of that. And, after about three paragraphs of that stuff, one is so confused that he is none the better before reading those pages. A simple, trusting heart that may not know where the root words come from or how it is connected here and there, but simply believes in Jesus, like Jimi, catches the eyes of God. In lowering our nets so deep into Scriptures, I wonder if we have forgotten the qualities of a child-like faith. A child will ask, “Why is the sky blue?” You answer, “God made it that way.” And, before you can say anything about light rays and reflection and atmosphere, the child has gone on his merry way. He doesn’t understand or even care about light rays. God made the sky blue. Cool. That’s all he needed to know.

Second, how many among us have a gold mine of Bible classes, blogs, podcasts, sermons and so many resources that we let slide by because we are “too busy.” Too busy may well be our curse. Too busy to learn, when Jimi would love to have what you have. Too busy to connect, when Jimi would love to have a fellowship of believers. Too busy to attend. Too busy to pray. Too busy is just too busy. Jimi’s situation is very unique. Even when Paul was in prison, he had fellowship and worshiped with the people of God. Not Jimi. His conversion came while behind bars. Except for a few Bible studies once a week and some Jump Starts that I mailed to him, he was alone. No one to encourage him. No one to ask questions to. But, with that wonderful faith, he longed to see the Lord.

Third, I think of all the fussin’, gossipy ways that some spend their days engaged in, while a man sitting in prison is thinking about going to Heaven. It’s shameful the way some act these days. Give me a dozen Jimi’s. Innocent. Naïve. Pure. Trusting. Just wanting to go to Heaven.

Today, Jimi dies.

Praise the Lord, I’m coming home.

Roger

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Jump Start # 3371

Jump Start # 3371

Matthew 11:29 “Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls.”

Our passage today comes from the Lord’s wonderful invitation. He calls not the good, the best, as the old Marine recruitment ad boasted. Jesus calls the weary, the burdened, the tired. And, it’s not a physical tired from staying up too late. It’s a spiritual, emotional and mental burden that comes from guilt, shame and brokenness. The thrill of sin quickly passes. And, like a sudden Indiana tornado, what remains is the ruins that accompanies wrong choices and bad decisions. The mess takes a long time to clean up. And, without Jesus’ help, there is no forgiveness.

Within our verse today is the tiny expression, “Learn from Me.” Learn from the best. Learn from the One who was always right. Learn from the One who knows. And, how we learn is by opening the pages of the Bible and looking deeply into the stories about Jesus. His love. His compassion. His faithfulness to God’s word and His mission speak clearly and loudly.

Learn from Me. Last week, I was with a church about an hour and a half from where I live. I once preached in that community when I was in a training program, trying to understand this life called preaching. The folks at that congregation asked me to come up on a Saturday and conduct a workshop about shepherding God’s people. The elders wanted to learn. They wanted to do better. They knew I had studied that topic passionately and invited me to come. Several others were in the crowd. We spent a long time talking, sharing and understanding the Biblical concept of shepherds. And, I saw something remarkable in that workshop study.

First, there was an eagerness to learn. Nearly everyone was taking notes. They were asking questions. They were looking deeply into passages. And, what a refreshing and wonderful spirit they carried among them. They came to learn. They had the heart to learn. There were shepherds from other congregations that traveled to learn.

As elders or preachers, we must never stop learning, growing and doing better. A heart that is willing to look, listen and consider, is a heart that will continue to improve. I have run into the opposite spirit of this as well. I had one elder in another place boldly say, “I’ve been doing this 35 years. Do you think there is anything you can teach me?” I told him, “yes.” He walked away disgusted with me.

Second, there is an thought from leadership studies that says the followers never exceed the leaders. If the leaders quit growing, there comes a time when everyone else stops growing. Stagnation takes over when that happens and the church will just drift. Growing shepherds is a healthy sign. As they improve, learn and get better, so will the congregation.

Third, there are times that we are so busy with life that we don’t have the opportunities to spend a day looking deeply into things that will help us. Learning to communicate better. Learning how to recognize hurting hearts. Learning how to connect better. Those would be great and powerful studies to have among the shepherds in a congregation. Have their own studies. Have their own times to talk things through and learn.

To learn, one must open his heart. To learn, one must want to learn. Most of us have been in school classes that we didn’t want to be in. The topic was required in order to graduate or get a degree. Learning was hard because our hearts weren’t in to it. We counted the time when the class would be over. We learned little.

But what a difference it is when one wants to learn. As a disciple, we must always be growing. We must always be looking into God’s word. We will never reach the bottom of the depth of things we may learn.

Learn from Me, Jesus said. Oh, the things we have learned, and the things we can still learn.

Roger